Archive for July, 2010

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Writing Mad Men

July 30, 2010

My husband and I were talking yesterday about the powerful visual and aural story that the show Mad Men puts on the small screen. We got to talking about one scene from the first season in particular, where Joan and Roger are at the St. Regis Hotel, and she realizes that the relationship is not what she had wanted. There’s a very powerful feeling of loneliness and alienation conveyed, especially in the final scene, where they are standing apart in front of the hotel as though they don’t know each other. The Big M asked, “How could you set that scene in a book?”

“I don’t know,” I responded. But I thought it was a very interesting exercise, so I decided to give it a try.

Hope you enjoy it.

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She sat on the end of the bed waiting for Roger to finish his cigarette and zip her up. In front of her a few of the slim, metal bars of his gift peeped out from the white sheet covering it. The parakeet within twittered. She repressed a shudder and sat up straighter.

“You have a lot of rules, Red,” he had told her. She did, and she had followed them all. From her first day she had been the Brigitte Bardot of the office, all curves and sultry confidence. As she walked, her almost palpable wake of sexuality pushed aside the boys of Sterling Cooper, keeping her always, just barely, out of reach. They salivated for her attention, their tongues practically hanging out like cartoon wolves. She talked to them. She smiled at them as though they were intimate friends. But she never let them touch her. She had bigger plans.

Roger Sterling had been her plan. He was handsome, rich, powerful, and unhappy in his marriage. She was the new 1960 model, the Calamine lotion to his midlife itch. She had worked him for over a year before making her move, had been working him still.

Everything had been on her terms. She would see other men. She would not make last-minute plans. No apartment visits. They would meet at the St. Regis Hotel. She would leave with what she had brought, plus his gifts of jewelry. It was all very neat and simple, and it was designed to build tension until he could no longer stand to live without her.

“This has been the best year of my life, Red,” he had told her on their previous afternoon together. “Before I met you I was so unhappy I was thinking of leaving my wife.”

She had been leaning against him as he said this, letting him zip up her dress, and she had reached up a hand and playfully smacked him on the cheek. He had laughed. He was always joking. It was one of the things she liked about him.

He had suggested then that he might get her an apartment. It would be a fourth-floor walkup with no doors or windows so that only he could get in. He wanted her all to himself. Her heart had leapt, but she had smiled demurely. She had known she was getting close, and she hadn’t wanted to spook him.

Carefully, she had explained the rules again. She was setting the hook. They had made love then, the carefully zippered dress just as carelessly removed.

Now she sat rigidly as he knelt behind her on the perfectly white down-filled duvet and zipped her up. He kissed her neck, his afternoon stubble grazing her skin, and the smell of cigarettes, brandy, and European cologne that combined meant Roger to her overwhelmed her. She swallowed hard, and looked away from the birdcage.

She was as neatly trapped as the tiny parakeet. Roger had told her today that he would never leave his wife.

“You want to go first?” he asked.

She nodded, not trusting her voice not to quiver. She stood up and carefully smoothed her dress, then picked up her handbag and walked to the door.

“Don’t forget that.” He glanced at the cage.

She nodded again and picked it up. It was bulky but surprisingly light. She carried it through the mahogany and gilt hallway and onto the marble elevator.

“Ground floor, ma’am?” the elevator operator asked. She nodded, and straightened up, ignoring the reflection of metal bars on the mirrored door in front of her.

Outside the St. Regis she waited at the taxi stand, her figure a rosy Raphael painting of quiet dignity against the golden background. A few seconds later Roger walked out and over to the opposite side. He lit a cigarette.

She chanced a look at him, but he was staring off into the distance, a businessman waiting for a cab after a business lunch.

Thirty minutes before, they had been joined together. Now they stood fifty feet apart as though they didn’t know each other.

And she realized that it was true.

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Ego Sum īgnāva

July 26, 2010

I haven’t written part two of the essay. Part of the reason is that I’ve been distracted by something more important, but the other part is that it’s hard and I’m still struggling to overcome my academic laziness.

I am not proud of this. I like to hope that announcing my weakness will motivate me to overcome it. I see it as similar to telling everyone I’ve started a diet. Which I haven’t. Just to be clear. So no weight comments, please.

I was scrubbing the grout on the kitchen floor yesterday and entertaining myself by listening to a lecture about the Middle Ages. (Synopsis: Black Death=Bad; Printing Press=Good)

I was sort of tuning in and out when the professor mentioned the shift in scholarship from the Continent to Britain. For a long time all of the great church scholars had been from Italy, but all of a sudden you had guys like Thomas Aquinas and William Ockham coming out of England and Ireland and taking over the academic world. Why was this?

It’s because they didn’t speak Latin. Rather, they didn’t understand Latin natively. Italian is derived from Latin. French is derived from Latin. Spanish is derived from Latin. But English is not. English is a Germanic language that is completely unrelated to Latin. The theory is that Continental scholars didn’t have to work as hard in their studies (all in Latin) because they already spoke a language that was very close to Latin.

They were lazy students, and the Brits took over the world because they had to study harder to learn anything.

I contemplated this point as my aunt and I met with her surgeon this afternoon. He moved to the U.S. from Vietnam when he was in his teens, learned English, graduated from a local high school, and got a bachelor’s degree in Electrical Engineering. He spent five years at IBM before going to medical school and becoming a surgeon. He’s been in practice 10 years.

Obviously this man is brilliant. More amazingly (to me, anyway) he’s an incredible student. I can’t imagine ever being motivated enough to get the education required for either an engineering or a medical career. He’s done both.

I’ve read that graduate students in science and engineering at the top American universities mostly come from foreign countries where English is not the native language. I’ve observed that the three local M.D.s I’ve talked to this week grew up speaking Vietnamese, Turkish, and Spanish.

It has me wondering: is there some truth to this theory that people who are forced to overcome a language barrier make better students of subjects that require intense study? Are we undergoing a cultural shift whereby most of America’s doctors and engineers will speak English as a second language?

Something for me to ponder as I avoid serious thinking.

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A Two-Part Essay

July 21, 2010

In 1942 in California, John Steinbeck wrote a novel called The Moon is Down. Meanwhile, World War II raged in Europe, North Africa, and the Pacific.

1942 was a dark year. The Reich was rising. Storm troopers under the command of Adolf Hitler’s National Socialist Party had captured and now controlled Austria, Czechoslovakia, Poland, Holland, Belgium, Norway, France, Hungary, Romania, Yugoslavia, and Greece. A little Jewish girl in the Netherlands called Anne Frank started a diary. That summer she would go into hiding with her family while Jews all over Europe would be deported to concentration camps. At Auschwitz, Nazis began gassing the prisoners.

The first American troops arrived in Europe in January. German subs attacked the coastline of North America from Canada down to Mexico. Japan was busy taking over the Pacific. In April they would conquer the Philippines and instigate the Bataan Death March. Japanese subs attacked Australia and islands all over the Pacific.

People were desperate. The outcome of the war was unclear.

John Steinbeck was 40 years old. By 1943 he would be a war correspondent for the New York Herald Tribune, but in ‘42 he contributed to the war effort by writing a propaganda novel, one intended to give hope to the people of occupied Europe.

In The Moon is Down, an unnamed little European town is captured in a nearly bloodless coup by an invading force, and now the people must endure occupation. Resistance is futile, the new leaders tell them. We can all live pleasantly together if you just follow our rules. But of course the people are not happy to have their guns seized, to have their homes occupied, to be forced to work in a coal mine for the new commanders, and to face imprisonment or death for failing to follow orders. They think of themselves as free men, and they resent their captors.

What makes this novel interesting and different from most propaganda is that the occupying force are portrayed as real people, not all of whom buy into what they’re doing. In particular, Captain Lanser of the invading force has his doubts. He has lived through war before and he knows that there can be no bloodless occupation of a country, no suppression of a free people without revolt. He can see the difficulty that will come, and he is tired, and he is frustrated, and he tries to be fair and kind to the townspeople, but ultimately he sees himself as a cog in a machine that is orchestrated by The Leader. He must do as The Leader wills. His duty comes first, regardless of his personal moral standards. He has never been free.

And so he watches without surprise or horror as the townspeople implement their resistance, picking off armed troops one at a time with stones or fists, sabotaging rails and bridges, and performing their required work in the coal mine slowly and badly.

His troops become discouraged. They never feel safe. They receive no human warmth from the townspeople. They know they are hated and they want to go home.

And all the time the Captain must press on because The Leader wills it. He knows his effort is fruitless, that it is a waste of lives on both sides, and yet he cannot leave. He has no power. He is required to occupy the town.

In the final scene, the town Mayor and Doctor are arrested and held hostage, to be executed if another act of sabotage is committed. They know the sabotage will happen and that they will be executed, and while they’re not happy about it, they are resigned to it. They also know that without their leadership the resistance will continue under new leaders, and when those are executed, new leaders, and so forth until the end. It is a fundamental difference between them and their occupiers, who are dependent on a handful of men in leadership position: if those leaders were gone, the occupiers would not know what to do. But free men will rise and lead themselves.

In an interesting little speech, the Mayor remembers back 46 years to his time in school with the Doctor and how they had to memorize Plato’s Apology, the defense that Socrates gave to the senate at Athens when he was condemned to death for treason. The Mayor stumbles over the words as he recalls the speech, and Captain Lanser of the occupying force corrects him, for he, too, memorized Plato in his youth. But the former feels the speech as a free man and the latter only hears it as pretty, meaningless words.

As Captain Lanser tries to convince the Mayor to rein in his people — as though the Mayor had the power to do so — explosions are heard outside. The sabotage has begun again. The Mayor voluntarily leaves with a soldier to face his execution. He pauses to quote Socrates’ final words to his old friend, the words Socrates spoke right before he drank the hemlock.

In the doorway he turned back to Doctor Winter. “Crito, I owe a cock to Asclepius,” he said tenderly. “Will you remember to pay the debt?”

Winter closed his eyes for a moment before he answered, “The debt shall be paid.”

[The Mayor] chuckled then. “I remembered that one. I didn’t forget that one.” He put his hand on Prackle’s arm, and the lieutenant flinched away from him.

And Winter nodded slowly. “Yes, you remembered. The debt shall be paid.”

The reaction to Steinbeck’s novel was immediate and powerful. The Nazis banned it, and Mussolini proscribed death to any Italians who possessed it. In occupied France and Norway, it became a rallying point for the underground resistance, who translated and distributed it all over Europe. It became the best-known work of American literature in Soviet Russia during the war.  In 1943 it was made into a movie. After the war Europeans commented that they couldn’t believe Steinbeck was able to write so realistically about their experience. It was as though he had been there.

I have recently and coincidentally read this and another novel published in 1942, and I’m struck by how the war influenced both writers and led them to opposite conclusions about the nature of man.

In 1962 Steinbeck was awarded the Nobel Prize for Literature. In his speech he said, “I hold that a writer who does not believe in the perfectibility of man has no dedication nor any membership in literature.”

Next up, a novel by a writer who did not believe in the perfectibility of man: The Once and Future King by Mr. T. H. White.

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Like a Rolling Stone

July 12, 2010

How is it that — thanks to children — I no longer have a gag reflex at the sight of someone else’s vomit, feces, or urine, but I about lose my mind when I see crayons on the carpet?

Entropy is the natural order of things, so why am I so irritated when they trash my house? I don’t feel disrespected. They’re just doing what comes naturally. But the clutter, the disorganization, the spills, the stains, the cups of curdled milk under the furniture, the toys strategically placed for maximum tripping effect, the dirty underwear on the couch, the stairs, and the dining table … it’s chipping away at my soul.

Sisyphus and his stone-rolling had nothing on a housewife picking up after young children.

I’m asking this as a serious question: why is order so important for my (and most other adult people’s) sanity? When I know that I will look back on this time in my life as a golden era, why am I struggling to appreciate in the now all of the aspects that I will remember fondly in the future? I know that someday there will come a morning when I wake up and the house I cleaned the night before will still be clean. So why can’t I feel chill about it all?

I’m going to have to think about it and get back to you.

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I Stand Corrected

July 3, 2010

Mom sent a corrected copy of my Texas map drawn from memory in the Story Time post. Classic!

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It’s Story Time!

July 2, 2010

It’s raining and the kids are watching The Sound of Music, so I’m going to amuse myself by telling you a story about my plane trip from Seattle to Austin.

I found a journal that I was intending to use for story writing. Instead I will illustrate this story with the journal.

*ahem*

“Why I Hate Flying” by Lynn

The Big M and I told the kids during our 3,245-mile drive on the family vacation that we were driving in part so that they would appreciate the convenience of flying.

On our trip to Seattle, The Big M and I reminisce about the easy times we had driving cross-country with children compared to the misery of being stuck in the airport and then stuck on an airplane.

I take the middle seat. The Big M heroically crosses his arms so as not to intrude on my space, but airplane seats are not made wide enough for his shoulders no matter how much he scrunches them. Meanwhile, a 50-something-year-old man takes the aisle seat.

Stranger makes no such heroic efforts to stay out of my personal space, instead hogging the armrest and pushing his leg against mine.

I elect not to talk to him about this because a) there’s not really much he can do about it because he is big and b) whenever I talk to strangers on planes it usually ends badly.

For one thing, once I get talking to someone, they start to think they are now friendly enough with me to invade my personal space even more than the cramped quarters of an airplane require. And I don’t appreciate when a stranger uses me as a body pillow.

My strategy of ignoring the stranger prevents this scenario. When he falls asleep I am not the pillow.

Meanwhile, I am becoming aware of the small child seated directly behind me.

Her mother’s tone of voice immediately makes it clear that the child will be an ongoing problem on this flight. This is one of those mothers who mollifies, who gives in to the child’s demands, thereby ensuring that the demands will continue.

I think of my own mother, who had little tolerance for noise when I was small and who has even less tolerance now. Her response would be to get up, turn around, and give that mother a talking to about keeping her child quiet.

And she has a point.

But I think about it a little bit and realize that this woman’s voice shows a complete lack of confidence in her parenting. No 30-second lecture is going to fix that. If anything, she’ll likely be less confident going forward seeing as how complete strangers yell at her about her lousy parenting skills.

And, really, who am I to lecture anyway?

My kids are good on planes, but maybe that’s a personality thing that resides outside of my active participation.

Anyway, that’s my elaborate rationalization for not turning around and causing a bigger fuss (I say bigger because the fuss is already there), but I feel better.

Aside from the considerable discomfort, flying is all right. You get a different perspective than you do on the ground.

As I’ve gotten older, however, I’ve gradually changed from an oblivious flier to an interested flier to an irritable flier to, finally, an irritably nervous flier.

What if that cute little bird gets sucked into an engine? We all know Sully retired. He’s not flying this thing. Besides, we’re not over the East River — he’d have to put it down on I-35 or in a field or something.

What would happen to my kids if this thing crashes?

Sometimes an active imagination is a problem.

I’m doing my best not to hyperventilate, and to ignore the fact that the intermittent screams of the child behind me are now being punctuated by the steady rhythm of her kicking feet. Her mother gets up to take the screaming sibling to the bathroom and a little fantasy plays through my mind…

I don’t act on it because it would be cruel to scar this kid for life just for annoying me for three hours straight.

But I do think about it.

Meanwhile, Stranger continues to hog armrest and legroom as he sleeps.

And these combinations are why I end up spending $12 the moment the drink cart rolls by.

Alcohol dulls both my sense of hearing and my sense of giving a crap.

I really do want to charge it to the mother behind me.

After 3 1/2 hours we begin our approach into Austin. Stranger leans over to me.

It’s not all that green because it’s summer. And the water is a pathetic little detention pond. The Big M jumps in with a response.

The Big M is a native of Iowa, so he doesn’t realize that Stranger isn’t noting our increased rainfall over last year. I’m a central Texas native, and since my childhood I’ve encountered people like Stranger all over the place, people who’ve only seen Hollywood’s version of Texas (filmed in Arizona). I had a lively conversation a few years ago with some New Yorkers who wouldn’t believe I don’t ride a horse down the streets of my city.

I suspect that Stranger had envisioned this:

And the next words out of his mouth prove my suspicions right.

I answer patiently.

I was thinking of El Paso. When I pick up my children from her house, my mother will inform me that El Paso is actually 600 miles west of Austin.

I drew this map from memory. I think all Texas schoolchildren should be required to be able to draw from memory a passable map of Texas and its major cities before graduating.

I’m probably off on the precise location of a few of these cities, and this map is of questionable quality. The irony that I would probably fail my own test is not lost on me.

Nonetheless, the desert is a good deal west of Austin.

Stranger seems suspicious of my answer.

He is not the first out-of-stater to ask me that.

And it’s true. I say y’all, but I don’t drawl.

Clearly, he’s struggling to understand.

To which he responds:

*sigh*

He seems to understand.

I don’t mind playing ambassador now that we’re on the ground.

To which my brilliant interlocutor responds:

And that’s pretty much how it goes until we get off the plane.

THE END

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